tis the season

The holidays can be the best or worst time of year. it all comes down to perception. For some people, the holiday season is the time of year where you have a valid excuse to display ridiculous amounts of depression and anger. people realize this time of year how alone and sad they truly are. If you asked me a year ago, I was one of those people. I had recently split from the man i thought i would spend my life with. I moved back into my parents house where things were anything but stable. i was down on my luck with no happiness in sight. but then, i woke up christmas morning, and realized just how blessed i really was. My family gave me so many wonderful blessings. I am not speaking of only the gifts that I received. There was so much love and joy on christmas morning. The joy I felt cannot be explained in words.

This year has been even better, and the holiday season has just started. I celebrated a wonderful thanksgiving with the greatest family in the world. lots of awesome cooking, eating, playing games, and rooms full of laughter. It was also the first thanksgiving of my beautiful niece Olivia. She is now 4 months old and getting so big and strong. I love her so much and i cannot even stand how wonderful she is!

Last night, I had the funnest sleepover of my life, and I felt like a little kid again. I took my adorable cousins Kylee and Ethan to the mall to meet santa and tell him what they want for Christmas. After that, we got ice cream, and came back to the house to play twister and barbies with my oldest friend Amelia. I woke up the next morning and made the kids pancakes and then the playing started all over. they really wore me out, but I had so much fun with them!

Life is good, bloggers. I have no complaints. I have a wonderful job, a wonderful family, wonderful friends, and a beautiful life. Every day, i finally wake up and feel like i am complete. I have not felt so complete in a long time. I am happy with where im at. I am single and healthy and life is good. Smile on bloggers, it'll be a great end to a beautiful year!

husband requirements

After the past relationship hell i have been through, i have decided to create a list. this list details all my requirements in a husband. Now, i do not plan to ever be married. However, if any many can fit into ALL these requirements, i will maybe marry him. :)

1. my future husband must have dreadlocks. now i know that some people think this type of hair is extremely disgusting. but i think it is so sexy!! it is low maintenance, easy, quick, and there is a way to have dreadlocks and still keep your hair extremely clean. I want a man who knows how to do that! speaking of clean...that brings me to my next requirement! 

2. my husband is required to stay clean, and to always smell good. i do not care if you are a man, if you work manual labor, or if its 1,000,000,000,000 degrees outside, you are required to smell good. not like ass. no if's, and's, or butt's about it. period, the end. You must maintain yourself. which brings me to point three.....

3. My husband must have a clean, well maintained beard. Again, don't confuse this with the idea of a dirty, disgusting neard that has no shape. I love a rugged, well maintained, sexy man beard.

4. My husband is required, and I repeat, required, to have an accent originating from Australia or New Zeland. I don't even think I need to explain why this is so important. It is sooooo sexy I can't even handle it. Enough said people, enough said. 

#6. My husband cannot be too skinny. I cannot tell you how gross I think skinny men are. Now, lets not leave any gray area here, he does not need to be FAT. But I refuse to date a stick skinny man. it is just gross a creepy. Some meat on his bones is extremely preferred. 

#7. This rule is considered the most important. My husband must be RDJ, or be as close to the real thing as possible. I need not explain more..

The wonder years.

what would you do if i sang you a tune?
would you stand up and walk our on me?
lend me your ear and i'll sing you a song
and i'll try not to sing out of key..

oh, The Beatles. what a great thing to listen to on a Sunday on October. SPEAKING OF OCTOBER!!

 #1. I have not blogged in quite some time. for this, I am sorry. I have been so busy with work and with school.
#2. I had a medical meltdown the past 30 days. First, a sever infection in my kidney and bladder. following that, an extremely painful pinched sciatic nerve, as well as my L4 vertebrae out of place. The pain was so bad that i fainted in the bathroom and couldn't leave bed for three days. Once I was able to walk without a cane, I caught my first nasty cold of the winter season. I am still getting over it two weeks later, and I cannot wait for it to be gone. (just in time for another one to come, im sure)
#3. Halloween is just around the corner, and I have not prepared AT ALL! I am thinking of going to my oldest and truest friend beau's house for his costume party. Only problem....I STILL DON'T HAVE A COSTUME! My plan was to create a female version of the most obnoxious celebrity in America...FLAVA FLAVVVVVVVVVVV!!! My plan was to create a purple velour dress, wear a giant clock necklace, a viking hat, and a golden grill. i have none of those things and I am running out of time! I made my costume last year and it only took me about 4 hours to sew. As cute as it was, it sort of turned into a disaster. The material I used was a poly-silk blend, and was not meant to be worn. Not only did the thread rip through the fabric by the end of the night, but it was also stained to high heaven, although I do not recall spilling anything on it! Needless to say, it was time and money wasted. I am worried about that happening again this year. I chose Velour for two reasons.

Reason #1: It is Flava Flav's favorite. He wears velour track suits as much as he possibly can. Since the costume is about him, I find it only fitting.. Although our skin tone is a little different, and my hair is a little less...nappy....i think i should follow in his style steps the best that I can with what I can..

Reason #2: It is DURABLE! it gives well, holds up well, and wont lose its shape! It will be easy to make into a standard tube dress. 2 yards will cost me roughly ten dollars, and I will be nearly all set!

I did already check the Halloween store, and they do have the accessories I need for the remainder of the costume. About $35-$40 total, and I will be all set for Halloween. Not bad, eh? Most girls these days spend $40 alone on a dress that barely covers their ass cheeks. Accessories included, I don't think I got off too bad. :)

Well bloggers...it was nice catching up. Glad to hear you are all doing well. Hope this update has been pleasing for you.

PS. I have the most chubby and adorable niece on the entire planet. be jealous.

billy madison

Well, its official. I am back to school! This is my second week taking classes and I am pretty freaking excited about it! although i feel tired all the time and i have more on my plate than i ever thought possible, i am having so much fun! i am taking two classes right now. on monday, wednesday, and friday i am enrolled in an interpersonal communications class. the class is said to teach us about better ways to communicate with the people around us, including friends, family, work associates, etc. I think i am a pretty good communicator as it is, but you never know! I am excited to see what this class will open my eyes to. then, on tuesdays and thursdays i am taking a digital media essentials class. aka. intro to photo shop. that is that class i am sitting in currently. the teacher is always about fifteen minutes late, then he talks for a little over an hour about god knows what. all the while we are playing online and not really listening to a word that is being said. then we play on photo shop until its time to leave.

now all of this seems pretty hectic with my full time work schedule, right? WRONG!  I got a promotion at work! i am now a member of the chat team for 1800 contacts. no more phone calls, no more stupid people yelling at me over the phone because they dont  understand the concept of LEGAL 24 HR DELAY. some people i swear...ANYWHOOOOO now i am off the phones and just spend the day chatting online to equal idiots.

oops...theres the teacher. gotta bounce!

its only right to do so.

one year ago today, the battle ended. the rage stopped. the fighting, the tears, the screaming, the pretending. it all ended one year ago today. right around this time.


this situation still pierces in my brain like it just happened. just yesterday. just moments ago. its hard to believe it let myself feel so sad, so mad, and to get so close to someone I didn't want to spend my life with.


This is a day of celebration. the day i found myself again. the day i packed my things, said goodbye to the past, and hello again to the ones who REALLY loved me.

still...its hard to believe its been a year...365 days...525,600 minutes...or something like that.

the things that have happened in this year.
2 new jobs
2 new cars
4 new bosses
30 new outfits
1 lost friend (kodabear)
1 kitten
1 new pup
1 driving citation
50 drunken nights
1 fist fight with a man....i won..
2 camping trips
4 strange..(if you dont know, you cant know)
2 reunited best friends
many new friends
a few new boys
new passions
new adventures
new experiences
and most importantly
one beautiful baby girl..

I have seen my fair share of ups and downs over the past 365 days. and i dont regret a single moment of it. i have had such a good time finding myself again. cannot wait to see what the next ten years bring!

time for some ketchup

I have become a bad blogger and for that i will apologize. its funny, i feel like i apologize at the beginning of almost all my blogs. i need to break that habit. :)

In the past month, some very beautiful and very interesting things have happened. I will do my best to fill you in on all the most important things.


I had a very lovely 4th of july with my family. we watched the parade in the morning with the cousins, and then that night i was able to watch fireworks with my sis, brother in law and father. it was a lot of fun, and i even bought glow sticks like a little kid. :)


the rest of july pretty much played out as usual. nothing too exciting happened through the middle of the month. i worked a lot and played a lot. my bestie Aimee Green is back into town so i am having a good time laughing and going on adventures with her.

 Then, july 21st came around, which was the due date of my older sisters very first daughter, Olivia. now, keep in mind, only 13% of women go into labor on their due date. well, melissa likes to break the standard, that is what i love about her. so of course, at 6 am, she checked into the hospital, in labor. after a looooong day, at 2:30 am on July 22nd, 2011 Olivia Irene Kemp was born, weighing exactly 7lbs and measuring exactly 20 inches. she is a bundle of pure perfection and I have never felt so much love for someone i have barely known. she is such a blessing. she is beautiful. :) here are a few pics.

isnt she a doll!? god i love her. :)

July ended with the celebration of Aimee's 23rd birthday, where we went to the lake, went cliff diving, swam, camped, drank, and i beat up a man. :) thats all folks. bye for now. 

a little vent time

i am not the type to normally complain about all my problems. i usually keep a smile on my face whenever possible. but I have had a very rough month. first, i had a problem with the screen going out on my phone. now in the past, any time i call t mobile i have to wait on hold for over an hour before getting through to them. and i was not ready to do that when i had a broken phone. so i went to the store and had the man there troubleshoot it. after about 35 seconds he agreed that i needed a new phone. my phone was under warranty so i did not have to pay anything for the new phone. he told he they would overnight it to me for free, but because this happened on a friday afternoon, it would not be there until monday or tuesday. so monday comes...and goes.....and tuesday comes....and goes......and then i watch the rest of the week pass by, and still no phone. then saturday evening, i receive a package. and guess what is inside?! NOT MY PHONE! all they sent me was a PHONE BATTERY! NEWS FLASH! MY BATTERY WORKS FINE!

then, fathers day rolls around, and i am sure we have already heard about all the drama that happened there with my car dying, bumper getting ripped off, me crying on the phone to a customer, etc..

now, my mother is having a very hard time lately with controlling her emotions. and one night she really had a freak out on me, not for any reason in particular.

then, my work tried to tell me that i was not going to get my bonus check for the month, which i rightfully earned.

then, my paypal account got hacked and all my money was stolen out of my bank account. after i called paypal and blocked my account, they were able to somehow allow to crook to still place two more orders, totaling hundreds of dollars. i then had to cancel my wells fargo account, open a new one, reset my direct deposit, call all my bills and debt collectors and reset my arrangements with them. it was a whole days process. drama, drama, drama.

then, dont worry, my car died again. wtf!!


ugggh. so glad today is the last day of the month, and a new moon. i am ready for a fresh start!