grrrrrreat

well my last blog ended a little hostile now didn't it? haha my bad bloggers. I will try to never do that again. Well, I financed a Honda Civic, and it kicks serious ass! I'm so sorry I have not blogged in a while but I have just been so mobile now that I have a good running, dependable car. On Saturday, 4/10/10 Reagan and I took a road trip to Burley, Idaho to help his mother move into her newly remodeled home. The house is beautiful and the trip was a lot of fun. We were able to spend some time with his entire family, which hardly ever happens since his mom lives up there and we all live down here. The car made it the two hours each way with no problems, and we used about a third of the gas that we used when we took the jeep up there. So that was even more of a plus. Sunday, for the most part things were back to normal, except it was Reagan's boss's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENT!! So since he was out and about all day, Reagan was able to take a nice little break from work and we went and visited the old school train museum up here in Ogden. We were able to go up inside some of the trains and it was super cool, but kinda scary. those things are a lot taller than you think!! So after that it was back to work for Reagan, and back to home for me. On Monday, I took a trip down to SLC to visit my daddy at work, and Reagan went to the tattoo shop as usual. Then around 3pm, just as Reagan's horoscope predicted, he decided to leave work and come home to spend time with me. That early day turned into three days! Reagan stayed home Tuesday and Wednesday also!! On Tuesday we had an awesome lunch with my friend Amelia at a place called Moochies Meatballs. they make some awesome sandwiches for sure. Then we did what I think was one of the funnest parts of our 3 days spent together. We visited Hatch Family Chocolates. Now if you are unaware of what the hell i am talking about, you can google it. There is a show on TLC called the little chocolatiers. they are little people who own a chocolate shop, in utah. yeah, we met them, not  a big deal really. lol. it was soooooooooo fun.

1987

it seems to be my year reference of choice lately, though I am not entirely sure why. I have been spending a lot of time comparing myself to Jeff Hornacek in 1987 when he played for the Phoenix Suns. You be the judge. I am blogging today to vent. Today has been a bit of a roller coaster. I started the day stressed, because we are supposed to drive to Idaho to help Reagan's mom move on Saturday, but we still don't have a legal, running car. So as i left the house, stressed, and with an empty wallet, I found myself pondering if things were going to work out in my favor this round. Then, as i arrived to SLC and reposted the ad to sell my car, my phone blew up. People calling left and right, offering top dollar for my POS car!! I had my car title signed over to a lovely woman named JESSICA by 4 o clock. I was amped! Still plenty of time to travel the 6 blocks down the road with my dad to look at a new car! I then proceeded to call Randy, the owner of the car lot that I would be purchasing a car from. The same man who told me he would be there ALL DAY TIL CLOSE! well, they close at 6pm, and when I called at 4, he was already gone. so frustrating. Now I have cash in my pocket, and no car to spend it on. SO FRUSTRATING. So I decide to take my fathers car with expired tags and non working door and drive the 40 something miles back to Ogden, to call it a day. By then, its about 5:30pm, perfect time to hit 5 o clock traffic! lovely. and to add to the stop and go image you are seeing now, i would like to add that the term "stop and go" is not accurate at all when it comes to driving a manual transmission car. its more like "clutch&brake, downshift, release, repeat" to stop and "clutch, shift, release clutch/accelerate, repeat" but i wonder if the length of the description is the reason for the basic term......now thats a thought to ponder. well bloggers, i just got an annoying phone call and it made me lose my train of thought. so im off to bed. peace.

3.31.2010

dear April 1st, meet snow. Snow, meet April 1st. gross, i know. welcome to Utah people. This is why I love it here. The inconsistency is the excitement.This is how I wish to live my life. By accepting the inconsistency of it all and enjoying the ride. :) well, today i quit my job. I decided that the direction that job was taking me was not the way i wanted my life to go. to wake up everyday, knowing that I would  be walking into drama, and into a place where i was not able to go about my business as a responsible adult without people telling me some ridiculous story about their life and how much they hate it. not my style. I want to be able to go through my day feeling like an adult, not like a little kid in high school again. so i bailed. and i've never felt better. I am super stressed financially, but who isn't these days, right? luckily I have an amazing support system backing me 100% and I am so very grateful. you all know who you are. :)

Well, it has been quite some time since i have blogged it feels like. I have been on bed rest for pretty much a week now! I have pinched the sciatic nerve in my back and long story short, its some brutal pain. I have a hard time getting up, sitting down, standing, walking, or even laying. it hurts all the time. aleve and tylonol barely take the edge off it seems, and icy hot does little to nothing. I wonder if it is worth  the medical debt to go see a doctor about it. hmmm.....all i know for sure is it hurts so damn bad. bad enough that it even gives me a stomach ache. i dunno about this folks, i think its a tad bit unfair. but i deal.

moving on to easter. This year was such a success in my book. I avoided the drama that is my family in slc. and even though I am extremely sad i did not spend easter with my family, I felt so comfortable just resting at home all night. so me and Reagan decided to do a little easter dinner, just the two of us. and it worked out so perfectly. I was far enough with dinner that i was able to pick him up from work, get home, put the finishing touches on, and eat up. I had never made a ham before, so i was a little nervous. but after creating the most amazing glaze, from scratch with no recipe i might add, i think the dinner turned out to be a total success. Reagan said it tasted amazing, and that was the goal. :) and on top of it, we had so much fun together. spending time enjoying each others company, and goofing around. :) it was such a lovely day.

and the final story to complete my blog, is the story of the mullet. I was offered an opportunity to get my hair cut for free by this amazing stylist at a really nice studio in SLC, and of course I jumped on the opportunity. so  when i get to the salon and her boss describes the cut i am getting, i was a little nervous but very excited for a new look. afterwards however, i was not very pleased. to give you an idea of the before and after, i posted a pic of myself with my hair before the cut. not extremely long, but it has some length to it. now the girl took about 9 inches off the top, and by top i mean 80% of my hair, and  took less than an inch off the remaining 20%. a little blow dry and some pomade later, and i looked like the picture shown. thats right kids, a straight up mullet. business in the front, party in the back. and no, i wasnt ready to party. i was miserable. so the next day i went to a gal at the local supercuts and she fixed me up right. and now, i look like this....(photos are posted in order of appearance)

the past few days.

I would like to start this blog by stating that as i sat down to begin, i noticed a giant spider on my bedroom door, and the spider was definitely picture worthy. so i took one. it was also a jumping spider, and it had about 6 lives. but, he is no more. :)

now  before i go any further, i need to tell you a story. about 6 months ago, Reagan and I were talking about our favorite things, tattoos, and each other. and we decided that one day we would love to get tattoos that are for each other, without being each others names. the decision was made that he would get a cheese pizza, since we ate cheese pizza on our first date, and i would get the siamese twins from the movie "Big Fish" since we watched that on our first date, and it is our favorite movie. :)

now, i would love to take some time to tell you all about the past few days. i have been so blessed with an amazing man in my life, and the past few days have really opened my eyes to that. This last weekend we celebrated Ashton's first birthday. Ashton is Reagan's nephew, for those who don't know. Reagan was finally able to have a day off and his mom even came into town. Saturday was an even more lovely day, because Reagan got his tax check.Whats the first thing he did? Took me to the mall and bought me two new pairs of jeans AND a sick ass throw back Jazz hoodie. coolest hoodie i have ever owned.

finally, sunday rolls around and it is time for reality to settle in. Sandy leaves town and Reagan returns to work. but then i get a phone call, and Reagan set me up an appointment to get work done on my sleeve.  what a pleasant and painful surprise. so I got to go see him at work for a few hours and get some serious work done on my arm. 3 hours later, i was ready for beddy. :) Now to set this story up for you, while i was getting my tattoo done, Reagan was writing the cutest little love letter in my notebook for me to find on a later date.

Monday night, was not so great. it was our 15 month anniversary, and we fought the whole day. When Reagan got home that night, I was extremely mad at him, for stupid reasons, and told him he did not make me feel appreciated and that I was sick of it. Little did i know he had spent the night before writing me a love letter. :(

Tuesday rolls around and we both feel just awful for fighting the night before, but the day had to go on, and we both went to work. We tried our best to make each other feel better and to tell ourselves that things will be find. We love each other way too much to let petty fights get between us. So then i get a call, from Reagan, saying I get to get a tattoo that night, his treat! what a sweet boy!! I get off work around 4:30 and head to the tattoo shop. I decide to get a lily, in memory of my fathers mother, Lily Melissa Wilson. it turned out beautiful. When i got to the tattoo shop, Reagan said he was gonna get a tattoo also, but didn't know what he was getting yet. I, yet again, got a little mean and said we couldn't afford to both get tattoos, but he said he had it covered. little did i know he got a slamming deal. :) so i get done with my tattoo around 9, and leave to get some food for the artist. when I come back, the station is all set up for Reagan's tattoo, but he still "doesn't know" what he is getting! so i start to get frustrated like "why the hell arent you deciding what you want to get?!" and then he walks into that back and grabs the stencil for his tattoo. and what is it? a slice of cheese pizza. i was floored. how could he be so sneaky and sweet, just for me? I was literally blushing for over an hour. it was the CHEESIEST tattoo i have ever seen. :) all i wanted to do was cry, because i felt so blessed. Then, we got home, and I found the love letter. :) it was the most amazing day i have had in a very long time. :) I seriously have the sweetest boyfriend in the entire world. I am so happy with where we are and things feel so fresh and new again. I feel like we are off on such a good foot now and nothing can bring us down. :)

To top the amazing week off, I get up today and go to work. and it feels like any normal day. I come home, a little tired and grumpy, and find an adorable picture on my bed, face down. on the back it says " for the 1 i love...J.L.W" and the picture itself, which Reagan painted, is a heart. His mind, heart, and soul are so beautiful. I am easily the luckiest girl in the entire world and nothing can get me down. I am so blessed with such an amazing man. Thank you baby, for all that you do. because of you,  I wake up smiling, and go to bed happy. :)

a day of quotes

today was very very busy and productive. I feel so tired i am not sure i can think of anything insightful to say. however, i have been blessed with a list a quotes, that i feel are important enough to share. so here they are. 

-He who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away

-Never design your character like a garden where anyone can walk . Design your character like the sky where everyone desire to reach.

-I don’t know if the optimists or the pessimists are right. But the optimists are going to get something done.

-When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.

-Honesty needs no disguise nor ornament; be plain

-If we always helped one another, no one would need luck.

-smile easily, knowing that of all the things I wear, a smile and good humor are the most important. Life’s most prized possession is a pleasant disposition.

-You can be pleased with nothing when you are not pleased with yourself.


-When angry, count ten before you speak; if very angry, a hundred.

-You’ve got to sing like you don’t need the money. You’ve got to love like you’ll never get hurt. You’ve got to dance like there’s nobody watching. You’ve got to come from the heart, if you want it to work.


-Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen


-The question is not whether we will die, but how we will live


-Love all. Serve all. Help ever. Hurt never.....

its only natural

well Mucinex, you do NOT live up to your commercials. i took you two hors ago and i feel the exact same. you suck. never again will i pay $22.99 for a bullshit bottle pills. haha. i made this picture today to show you how much i LOVE Mucinex. thats right people. Mucinex gets a -10 on my medicine scale. i want to know why you people think it is okay to charge so much money for your product when it simply sucks!! please excuse me while i cough, since my MUCINEX COUGH SUPPRESSANT DOESN'T WORK! dont worry, i am not bitter. i am simply going to write a letter to the people of mucinex and DEMAND my money back. these people suck.

now, onto more important things. my beautiful sister, melissa, is getting married in less than three months! and i have so much planning to do! I need to get started on her bridal shower! We are going to do a tea party theme, to coordinate with her wedding theme, alice in wonderland! i think it is going to be the most beautiful and creative wedding i have ever been to. But, the bridal shower just may turn into a disaster, considering i am not very creative. ='[ i want all of you to know that my blackberry landed on the keyboard of my laptop and created that frowny face all by itself. talk about a smart phone. haha. anyways, i have but one awesome bridal shower game picked out so far, but need at least a few more. so people, the purpose of this blog today is to get suggestions for awesome bridal shower games, preferably some that coordinate with the theme! ideas people! please and thank you. I am also accepting donations. bee tee dub.:)

salt lake city

what a beautiful sight. there are days when i just wish i could spend all day walking the streets, seeing all the amazing different cultures that salt lake has to offer. different people, different places, different beliefs, genders, sexual preferences, races, religions, politics, everything. if i could spend the rest of my life anywhere in the world, i would stick to salt lake city. this is my hometown. and boy, do i miss it. although my home is only about 45 miles away, it seems like a whole world of  difference. and although i love the home im in and the family i am making, i cannot help but sign deeply when thinking of the beautiful streets of salt lake city. and melissa, if your reading this, all i can hear in my head right now is your voice saying "why dont you just move back" haha. i love you sister. and i want to move back. and someday i will. but life to me, is about exploring! i have but one life to live, and for all i know, my life is more that half over! i could live til im 70 or til im 27. who knows. but i made a decision a while ago to never let anyone or anything hold me back from what MY life desires are. one of which is exploring new places. so someday, slc, i will be back to claim you as my forever home. but for now, you can be my runaway. my go to place when i need a break. our relationship will never die, and you will never get old. :)