t minus 48 hours, and plus one new dress

starting monday ill begin my new diet and workout routine. I am nervous and also very excited. i will be maintaining a vegan lifestyle for the duration of my workout, and probably beyond as well. Id like to thank Ms. Kylie Peterson for assisting me in making this transition. I think it is something that i have wanted to do for a very long time and now i am finally able to do so. speaking on kylie, i just want to give her a little shout out. she is such a sweet and caring person. she is very selfless and loving to everyone that she comes into contact with. she has been there for me whenever i needed to vent and i hope that she feels i have done the same for her. she has been through a lot and still is going through not the easiest lifestyle, but she completes every task thrown her way with beauty and grace. she is the true definition of a friend, and i am so glad that i have been developing a stronger bond with this LOVELY young lady. she is a great mother, and a great friend. :)

for those of you who having heard of P90X, this is what it looks like.... it is a workout routine consisting of 12 dvds. the workouts are structured around avoiding the plateau effect that happens to most people when they begin a workout routine. in most cases, when you start a workout routine, it takes your body roughly 7 days to begin feeling used to that routine, in other words, it is not straining your body anymore. this workout systems recognizes when the plateau affect is about to occur, and changes the workout just in time for your body to always feel like it is pushing HARD. THIS FRIGHTENS ME! my favorite part about working out is when i dont hurt when i do the workout anymore. but i know, you dont gotta tell me, this means i am not really working my body out anymore. i plan to cycle through this series of workouts three times in total, breaking briefly in between, so that my body has to fight through them again. my goal is to lose 70 lbs. i bet you wanna know how much i will weigh then, huh? well a true woman never reveals her weight unless she is pregnant. ;) now i know for those of you who follow my blog religiously i may sound a little contradicting, because a little over a year ago i posted a blog about how happy i was with the way i looked and how i was never going to change anything. i want you to know this has nothing to do with how i look. the motivation behind this is my health. i have a history of heart disease, cancer, high blood pressure, and high cholesterol in my family. as of now, i have been blessed to not have any of the above. however, i better knock on wood and hit the ground running if i wish to keep it that way. this is about living a long and happy lifestyle, and being able to do so while still feeling healthy and young. i want to be able to play tag with little olivia when she is five and not be out of breath after five minutes. i want to get a dog and take him to the park and run around without passing out. and i want to spend the summer swimming and hiking without having to stop for air every ten minutes. this is about being healthy and happy. and i cannot wait to reach that goal. this will be a life long process of changing my lifestyle to better myself, and after twenty one years, i am ready to do it.


speaking of twenty one years, it is almost my birthday! in four months i will legally be able to use my OWN ID to get into bars. and sadly, im already over it. i did have a lot of fun this winter keeping warm with good company and a little bit of whiskey. i met some awesome people and made tons of memories. however, it is not the time in my life for me to be going out and wasting my weekend doing things that i may or may not remember the next day. part of living my more healthy lifestyle is to stop drinking alcohol. now, the occasional glass of red wine with a nice dinner is one thing, because that is good for your heart health (which is what i am promoting) but i do not plan on spending my nights with Jim, Jack and Jamison anymore. sorry fellas, im moving on. :)

now, to talk about school. I am planning on enrolling SOMEWHERE for summer semester. maybe fall, AT THE LATEST. by fall semester, i will have about 80% of my debt paid in full, and i will be able to afford to pay for school if my loans dont come through. as of right now, Seattle will have to wait. i want to be here to spend one more Christmas with my family, and to spend Olivias first Christmas with her. i want time to prepare, to save, and to stabilize, because lets face it, i am kind of a home body. my dad is my best friend and i gossip with my mom more than anyone else. so give it a year, by then seattle will be ready, and so will i. so for now, we are pressing the pause button. dont rewind, dont return. just pause.

and on a final note, i leave you with this....

never frown upon the devastations of the past, for it is the past that brought you to now, and the mistakes of now that will bring you the glory of tomorrow. --Jessica Wilson

a challange

have you ever fallen asleep in your clothes, and when you wake up you are in only your underwear? it seems like people who are overweight have a harder time sleeping fully clothed for the simple fact that their WHALE BLUBBER keeps them warm enough at night. today, i had this wake up call. i have lived my life always being overweight but healthy. i can exercise for a long time without feeling like i am dying. I generally choose healthy foods before not so healthy ones. however, i am a product of my parents mistakes, and unfortunately we were raised on 3 cans of pop a day and wendys for dinner. It is unfortunate that i was constructed in that matter, and that i have continued to live my life that way. but it is time to change. I have purchased a pretty hardcore weight loss dvd set and plan to begin that on money. I will return to cutting all meat out of my life, and am in the process of becoming completely animal product free. I need to concentrate my diet in a more healthy direction. no saturated fats, no sugars, no sweets. It is about living a healthy lifestyle. This is going to be very challanging for me, because i have little to no will power. so i need everyones support. seriously. you may not support the lifestyle i am choosing to live, but as a friend and a follower, i ask you to support my quest to a healthier lifestyle. thank you very much for following bloggers, more to come soon....

accepting applications.

I am going to start this blog by reviewing a movie that i recently watched with my mother. this is, at best, a B list movie, with mostly unknown actors who do NOT know how to act. it is a movie about a female author who decides to take a vacation to a cabin somewhere down south. she rents a cabin to herself, brings a bag of weed and a few bottles of wine, and finds inspiration to write her new book. On her way to the cabin, she come into contact with a group of young southern boys who want what she has but what she is not willing to give away. long story short, the movie quickly turns into a disgusting ten minute scene of gang rape. now i know this is not something that most people want to see or hear, but i am just being honest. about half way through this movie i found myself just begging theses men to leave the poor girl alone. but then, the movie turns in the right direction. after the hell that these men put this girl through, about a month later, after they think she is dead, she comes back and shows all of them exactly what she is made of. she continues to torture, and brutally kill ALL of the men who messed with her. now im sure most of you are thinking that this movie is stupid and has nothing to learn... but after thinking more about it, this movie is the definition of strong women. yes, she was weak in a sense of being gang rapped, although i dont think anyone can fight something like that off. however, the fact that she comes back and gets the ultimate revenge on them just shows people how tough women can be. I give this movie an A-


MOVING ON

best fortune ever

April, so far, has been absolutely amazing. things at work have really turned around. if i keep going at the rate that i am, i will be bonusing around $6 extra dollars an hour. working full time, that is about an extra $1000 dollars, just for doing my job well. now the month just started so i have got a ways to go, but so far, so good. I was lucky enough to eat some panda express on march 31st, and the fortune i received predicted this month so far to a T. i only hope that things continue to move in the right direction. :)


Yesterday was my older sisters 22nd birthday! She is 25 weeks pregnant and her growing up is starting to make me feel so old. i will be 21 in four months! that is crazy to me. it seems like just yesterday i was getting lost in the halls of the middle school, wondering if i would EVER grow up. i know that i still have a lot of growing and learning to do, but from where i was a year ago to where i am now, i have never been happier with where life has led me. i have so many wonderful things coming up in the near future, i cannot wait!


ON ANOTHER NOTE.....

where i will SOMEDAY reside

I am sad to say that financially, seattle in august is becoming more and more out of reach. although it is something i still want more than almost anything in this world, i am financially not in a place when i can just pick up my life and relocate. my plan is to be there by fall semester of 2012, at the VERY latest. that will give me a year to completely pay off the rest of my debt (which i am nearly done with) AND to save enough money to be up there comfortably and able to live while finding a job and place to live. i still want to go to school up there more than anything. but for now, i am thinking about enrolling in the community college and getting the generals done that i will need for my major. that, financially, is what I can do right now. so no, seattle is not off my mind. i still think about it all the time, i still want to live there for the rest of my life. I am not the type of girl who is looking to settle down and get married. i wont soon start a family and but a house in the country. no, NOT I. my goal is to move to a city when i can express myself artistically and surround myself with people who love the same things that i do. someday soon, i tell ya. someday soon. :)


well bloggers, i once again want to thank you for taking the time to read all my rants and raves. I am no writter, i just love to write......

Hilarious

My mother is on the phone with my sister, using my dads phone. My dad is laying on the opposite side of the sectional. Where he is laying, the couch rests against a railing, and beyond the railing is a large flight of stairs leading to the tile floor of the front door entryway. My mother finishes the phone call and takes the phone in her non dominant left hand. She decides its a good idea to 'toss' the phone over to my dad. With her not so often used left hand, she hurls the phone and it barely misses my dads head, before grazing the railing and slamming onto the tile floor below. Hahaha.

Now if that isn't funny enough. After we all share a good laugh regarding her terrible aim, she proceeds to tell us "I was thinking to myself 'self, this is your left hand. You never use this hand. Maybe tossing this phone isn't a good idea' BUT it was out of my control! My hand had a mind of its own! Like turrets! " hahaha.

I guess you had to be there. But good hell, that was funny.